Monday, May 5, 2008

Mama-to-be blues

The closer I get to meeting the lion cub, the more anxious I get.

This dream is too good to be true. And I am not lucky enough to live it. Luck this good* comes to other people.

Every hour of every day I wait for the other shoe to drop. I wonder how it will happen. How will the dream get snatched away from me? When will it happen?

I wait and wait and wait.

While I’m waiting, I wash and fold his tiny tiny clothes. And I wonder if he’ll ever really wear them. Hubby and I practice our labor coping skills, and I wonder if I’ll ever get a chance to use them.

This dream is too good to be true.

* Conceiving your dream baby, after 3 long years of fruitless TTC, on the eve of your anniversary while on your dream vacation? That is some seriously good fortune.


Dr. Grumbles said...

It all sounds true to me. You'll meet your much-cherished baby soon!

Katie said...

It's not only true, it's YOUR truth. I am thinking happy thoughts for you. He'll be here, and growing out of those tiny clothes, before you know it!! -MamaDep