Monday, May 5, 2008

Mama-to-be blues

The closer I get to meeting the lion cub, the more anxious I get.

This dream is too good to be true. And I am not lucky enough to live it. Luck this good* comes to other people.

Every hour of every day I wait for the other shoe to drop. I wonder how it will happen. How will the dream get snatched away from me? When will it happen?

I wait and wait and wait.

While I’m waiting, I wash and fold his tiny tiny clothes. And I wonder if he’ll ever really wear them. Hubby and I practice our labor coping skills, and I wonder if I’ll ever get a chance to use them.

This dream is too good to be true.

* Conceiving your dream baby, after 3 long years of fruitless TTC, on the eve of your anniversary while on your dream vacation? That is some seriously good fortune.

2 comments:

Dr. Grumbles said...

It all sounds true to me. You'll meet your much-cherished baby soon!

Katie said...

It's not only true, it's YOUR truth. I am thinking happy thoughts for you. He'll be here, and growing out of those tiny clothes, before you know it!! -MamaDep